“Shortbread” Cookies

It’s 6:00am and I’m bored.  I woke up at 3:00am, read a bit, went downstairs, got some coffee, and began to peruse my favorite blogs.  While half awake, I realized I’m bored (or maybe delirious).  I need to do something, make something.  Yes, I know there are loads of clothes to be washed and put away, the house is a wreck, and I need to begin Week 3 of my Focus T25 workout, but I want to do something creative.  While looking through the blogs, I found a no-bake “Shortbread” cookie recipe that looked so easy to make.  Just 5 ingredients.  Ok, I can do this and still have time left to do something else (ha, whatever).

So, this past weekend I was a hot mess.  I stuffed my face (with foods I never eat) all weekend.  Not just tastings but copious amounts of pure junk, greasy, fattening, and delicious foods.  Now, I’m paying for it.  My stomach hates me and I’m hating myself.  I am going to turn the page, though.  I cannot undo my bad eating, but I can move forward and make it a goal to eat well.  I have to – we are heading to the beach in a few weeks, so I need to try and get my act together and put at least 80% effort into eating healthier and moving even more.

So, yes, even personal trainers have a moment of weakness.  At least this personal trainer does.  I mean, I’m human.  I have faults (many), I have weaknesses (many), I have a sweet tooth (many), and I am realistic.  Life goes on.  I will work extra hard in my classes this week.  Starting today, I am going to increase my weights in BodyPump.  Oh, yeah, I’m going to pay for that later I’m sure!  In addition, I’m back to writing my foods down.  I need to find out when I’m the most vulnerable to eating.  Is it morning?  Evening?  Am I getting enough protein?  I do know if I don’t have my daily dose of Shakeology (which on the weekends I haven’t been consistent), then my cravings are unbearable.  I think that’s the issue.  I need to be consistent.  I will start now.  Are you with me?

Back to the “shortbread” cookies, I made them and I’m glad I did.  Wow!  These should curb my sweet tooth cravings as well and I won’t feel guilty at all.  I did have to adapt the recipe to what I had in the house, so here is what I did:

2 cups of a mix of almonds, walnuts, and cashews (all raw, and because I didn’t have enough of one nut, I mixed these three kinds to get to 2 cups)
1 cup unsweetened coconut
1/4 cup agave nectar
1 tsp of vanilla
1 pinch of sea salt

Put all in the food processor and mix until a dough ball forms (it took longer than the called-for 60 seconds).  Transfer dough to a bowl.  With your hands, form small balls and then flatten between your palms, and place on a cookie sheet covered with wax paper.  Put in freezer for 30 minutes to firm and then transfer to airtight container.  Keep in the freezer.

This recipe made 39 cookies for me…probably would have been more, but I dipped into the dough…yes, I did write it down in my food journal.  Geez – where is the willpower?

Ok, I’m off.  I need to get my workout in, shower, go over my BodyPump choreography for today’s class, plan clients’ workouts for today, and stay on track.  I feel refreshed, ready to start my week with a positive attitude, and I know I can do it.  I am a very lucky girl.  I love what I do.  I mean, how many people can say that?  I can’t wait to see my clients, work them out, see their faces, hear their stories, cry with them, laugh with them, and encourage them to keep going.  It’s so rewarding.  Did I mention I was a lucky girl?  :)

Stay Strong!
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M.I.A. and the July Challenge

Yes, I know, I’ve been M.I.A. for the past few weeks.  It’s a been a crazy few weeks in our house.  Our daughter is home from Chicago visiting for a few more days.  It has been so nice to have her back.  I really am not looking forward to letting her go back to her home so far away.  I have loved every second of having her near me, going to the gym with me, eating dinners out, cooking dinners home, drinking wine together, and just hanging out. SO.MUCH.FUN.

Now I’m going to get sentimental and sad.  As you some of you know, we had to say goodbye to our beloved kitty after almost 17 years.  Our kitty fell ill in May, felt somewhat better, off and on, on certain days, and then just took a turn for the worse and really got sick.  She was a trooper and held on to life until Allyson could get home (at least that’s my story as to why she waited).  I took her to the vet on her last day, and had to have Allyson take care of the essentials.  It was a devastating day for us.  Our whole family feels as if a part of our hearts have been ripped open.  We miss that cat.   She was our rock – always there for us.  I am still crying over her.  I’ll come home expecting to see her, and just tear up.  It’s going to take a while for me to get used to an empty house without her.  It’s taken me two weeks before I could store her favorite toys (I can’t throw them away) or to put away her food dishes or to just throw away the cat box.  I hope this gets easier.  It’s just too raw right now.

In the field I am in, I must go on.  I see people on a daily basis and need to have myself together and get back to work.  So, now it’s time to create a July challenge.  I fell behind, so you have had a reprieve of the first 10 days of July.  But starting now, let’s move.  I need this just as much as you.  I need for you to keep me motivated and keep my mind off of things.  The July Challenge is Jumping July!  10 squat jumps, 10 pushups, 10 burpees with jumps, and a one-minute plank.  Try this every day until the end of July.  We will all feel better after getting up and moving.  I know it helps me…so off I go to begin the challenge.

Talk to me.  Tell me your thoughts.  If you’ve gone through the loss of a pet, I would love to know how you survive.  Give me strength and hope that this emptiness will eventually ease.  I need you.Kitty